Life : Five Things I Wish I’d Known At Fifteen : by Carly Findlay
Fifteen. It was fifteen years ago. I was in Year 10. I wanted to be a journalist. I was in love with Savage Garden. I had a best friend, perhaps my only friend. I spent a lot of time in the school library. I felt very lost and isolated. I wish I knew then what I know now. That it was going to be ok. I wish I knew that in a few years, life would be great, and I’d be more than anyone ever expected of me. Here’s five things I wish I could tell my fifteen year old self :
I want to tell my fifteen year old self that my life is going to be ok. That I am going to be someone. Someone more than the bullies told me I’d be and the doubters expected of me. That I will be more than they ever could.
I want to tell my fifteen year old self that I will find someone who loves me – maybe more than one someone, and even if he is a douchebag, even if I’m still single aged 30, someone will look past my illness and see beauty.
I want to tell my fifteen year old self that I will be a success. Even though I’ve never been chosen to lead anything by my school peers, I will be a leader. I will have a good job, live independently, be tertiary qualified, receive awards and I will be a published and respected writer and speaker.
I want to tell my fifteen year old self that I probably won’t marry anyone famous – I shouldn’t get my hopes up about marrying Darren Hayes. But I will meet him, and many other celebrities in the future, and this will be pretty damn cool.
I want to tell my fifteen year old self that looks aren’t everything. That I will influence people through just being myself. That I don’t have to change. That people will love me for me. And that I can use my image to influence the world in a positive way.
Carly Findlay is a writer, blogger and TV presenter, making people think about the way appearance matters (or shouldn’t matter). She’s soon going to the UK to speak at a conference about appearance, and will also go to BlogHer in New York. She loves blogging, cooking, eating, seeing bands, expensive cheese, fashion and shopping, Darren Hayes and Callan Mulvey.